Having a VERY rough day!!!

I got up extra early today to make sure I got the most out of my day, I got a bunch of work done and felt like I might meet my CHA deadlines. I get a call from my brother Joey telling me my dad is very bad off, he's in critical condition and is being admitted. My dad has been sick for the last few years with emphysema and can not work anymore, well today he couldn't breath and he called 911, when he got to the hospital his oxygen levels were so low it was starting to affect his heart. He is having a hard time getting his breath out, he can take in a ton of air buut can't get it out. He is resting comfortably tonight and we are waiting to see what the night holds. They may have to intubate him tomorrow and he may not recover from that. WHY OH WHY am I so far away, everyday is hard but days like today make me want to say forget. Tonight I am just praying and missing him terribly 3000 miles away!!! I may leave tomorrow to be with him, and he doesn't want me too, he wants me to have a great show at CHA, he's like you have worked to hard to get where you are don't give it up on me. OMG, how can I work this out so both things can happen. My friends are amazing, they are like just go we will get you through this and take care of things for you here. What do i do??? My heart is breaking!!! Just have to wait and see what tomorrow brings me.

Please pray for my daddy!!!!